First and foremost, I have the best friends in existence. There is NO doubt about it.
After thinking things through, I've come to realize that maybe I DO deserve better. I shouldn't settle for shit like this. Cause that's exactly what is is... its all just fucking shit. Its shit now, it will be shit later. I have to face that no matter how much I would have wanted to, we are not, nor ever, going anywhere. And that is all it is.
And for all those people who have finally beat some sense into my head: I love you, thank you.
xomkp
