Thirsty.

I don't know why I reacted the way I did.

I guess you could say that I'm a tad bit irritated by all of it. And apparently, I do have some sort of problem with it, but I wouldn't say that I would be mad. It's obviously YOUR life, where you make the choices. So, I'm not going to be the one who tells you what to do.

I don't have the clearest understanding as to why that happened though. I guess its also been in my mind. Fuck, it HAS been for a while, now. Sometimes I just want to, but then I think of all that I would be throwing away. Stop right in my tracks. I turn around, instead of surrendering. But I can't deny that there's a definite growing fire somewhere inside of me. And now I just want to feed it.

I don't know exactly what to make of this.




mkp.

THREE.

Its always really sad to have to say goodbye to a friend, knowing that hangouts will be limited, run-into's will practically become non-existent, and (until I get a new phone) conversation will be nearly impossible. But with that being said, I have faith knowing that some of my friendships can and will withstand anything. This being one of them. And so, I'm wishing her the very best of luck for when she moves to San Francisco very, very soon.

Also, today is a very special day. Wednesday, July 22. For me─ someone who considered any form of commitment to be a miserable ordeal─ 3 months happens to be a long time.

And I'm going to see this with her today. I'm so excited for it, I feel like an excited 5-year-old on Christmas eve.





mkp.

And Darling.

I swear I woke up smiling.

Whatever yesterday was, it certainly hasn't left my system.

Maybe it was the brownies, or the terrible driving. Maybe it was the sad disappointment of an highly-anticipated Harry Potter film. Or maybe just all the adventures at Venice Beach, complete with wasted strangers and faint stars. Or It could have been the unexpected affect of delicious Vietnamese food, and food coma.

And then the tears.

But I know it had to do with all those lyrics I heard playing through the stereo. They dismissed any doubt still instilled in my mind, leaving just the feeling of certainty.

And everything in the world felt right.




mkp.

If you'll be my star, I'll be your sky.

Tonight was the absolute greatest.
No doubt about it in my mind.
Everything was perfect.
I guess there's just something about lying down under a blanket of brilliant stars right next to the person you love.

Next week = 3.

I can't believe how quickly time flies.




mkp.

Baby Taylor.

$300.

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mkp.

Nosebleed.

Every summer, I am condemned to several deadly cases of the Nosebleed. This usually involves tons of tissues, cold showers, and ice cubes. Finally, after an hour of lost bloody tissues, I can type away.

Since my last post, Crystal got back home, I've dyed my hair jet-black, finally gotten my permit again, and started helping to re-paint and re-furnish the house. By the end of the summer, I hope to have finished painting and redecorating my room. And hopefully I'll have my licence as well. And I hope sometime in August, I'll get to go over to Frisco with Kelsey for a weekend. My plans never work out, but I hope these will pull through.

Oh, and I've gotten back into painting again.

I'd say that this is about 35 - 40% complete. I'm EXCITE.

mkp.

14.

Few tears shed, bags of swap meet finds, newly dyed jet black hair, phonecalls with a military friend, sleepovers, a driver's permit, and an immaculately-cleaned closet later, I now find myself counting down the hours.

You'll be home so soon, and I can't wait.




mkp.