March 27, 2009
Perfect.
Perfect everything. Yes yes yes, everything is right .
Tomorrow I will be spending my Saturday night setting up for the Spring art show. Who knows what adventures that will hold in store. Last time, every possible mishap seemed to have occurred. But that all doesn't matter at all to me. Because I know that everything will all work out in the end.
I hope the rest of the long break will be as perfect as this day was.
I will post pictures of my newest painting soon.
mkp.
Tomorrow I will be spending my Saturday night setting up for the Spring art show. Who knows what adventures that will hold in store. Last time, every possible mishap seemed to have occurred. But that all doesn't matter at all to me. Because I know that everything will all work out in the end.
I hope the rest of the long break will be as perfect as this day was.
I will post pictures of my newest painting soon.
mkp.
March 24, 2009
Her Morning Elegance.
No school for me today. Apparently, I'm sick, and so I'm stuck at home with some weird viral, internal sickness plaguing my body. Yummm.
So instead of working on presentations, crazy teachers, boring lectures, and whatever death sentence Lifetime Fitness planned for us today, my schedule is comprised of this:
So instead of working on presentations, crazy teachers, boring lectures, and whatever death sentence Lifetime Fitness planned for us today, my schedule is comprised of this:
I suggest clicking on the last picture, to view all the detail put into that drawing.
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Also, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_HXUhShhmY . It is probably the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Enjoy.
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mkp.
March 23, 2009
Little Bit.
I've realized that Lykke Li's music is the soundtrack of my life. Everything is just so relevant.
I'm in a mood for writing, but I'm at a loss for words. I had a really good day, but I feel like shit. No bad aspects are involved, other than the fact that my body can barely stand without collapsing. My head is throbbing, sending quick and sharp pains along the side of my head, and I feel nauseous. I took a nap, but woke up feeling sicker. I wanted to stay up to talk to you, but I feel weak. I need to sleep tonight.
I'm half ready to move on, half not ready. It would be nice if i could just pause time, and stay here for a while. But then again, being here is making it even harder to decide what i am going to do in June, when that time does come.
Thank you for showing this to me, Albert. This version is brilliant.
Hands down, I'm too proud for love
But with eyes shut, it's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B, It can't be up to me.
mkp.
I'm in a mood for writing, but I'm at a loss for words. I had a really good day, but I feel like shit. No bad aspects are involved, other than the fact that my body can barely stand without collapsing. My head is throbbing, sending quick and sharp pains along the side of my head, and I feel nauseous. I took a nap, but woke up feeling sicker. I wanted to stay up to talk to you, but I feel weak. I need to sleep tonight.
I'm half ready to move on, half not ready. It would be nice if i could just pause time, and stay here for a while. But then again, being here is making it even harder to decide what i am going to do in June, when that time does come.
Thank you for showing this to me, Albert. This version is brilliant.
Hands down, I'm too proud for love
But with eyes shut, it's you I'm thinking of
But how we move from A to B, It can't be up to me.
mkp.
March 18, 2009
Time Flies.
Today started out with a lot of uncertainty. Feelings of hesitation and, at times, even indecisiveness have practically plagued the entirety of my last night and morning/afternoon.
And then I get home.
I look through the pile of unopened envelopes, only to realize that I've finally received a letter from a dear friend, and I am so happy. I am excited to begin writing to her everyday.
And then I think this whole situation all over.
And then I realize that I am always one to overreact and to over analyze every single thing, like doubt has forever been etched into my brain and there's no possible way of ridding it. But I have come to terms with what this all is, and what is it is something that I would not trade for the world. We learn something new about ourselves everyday, and I learned how I really feel. What I feel is stronger than any temptation to destroy promises that can easily be broken during the spur of the moment. Truth is, no matter what, this is the happiest I have been in a long time.
And I miss you now, and I wish you could've just stayed with me a little bit longer. Time flies. I will eagerly wait for your call.
I hang on, don't want to miss my prime
'Cause time will fly, upon my baby's back.
mkp.
March 11, 2009
Soft Shock.
I feel so much better since the last time I posted.
Its seems ridiculous to me how friends seem to possess magical powers that enable them to mend the things that feel broken and incomplete in your life. Many things have in fact been mended, and I believe that things are finally falling into place.
To be perfectly honest, when Shell was nearing her ship date, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to hold on to a lot of the new friendships that were made in the time that existed between then and March 9th. But I guess the real friendships will be able to withstand her absence. I have come to a bittersweet realization and acceptance of that, and I am perfectly fine with it.Today after school, I spent a few hours with someone who really means a lot to me. Our friendship has been rekindled in a matter of a month and a couple weeks, but things feel new. We have become completely different people compared to who we were three years ago. I am truly grateful to have her as a friend.
I realized today that it is wrong to let bad things bottle up, and that it is okay to talk about whatever's been eating you up inside. I learned that part of me wishes I was older, but the greater part embraces my youth. I learned that all I really want is to inspire and be inspired.
Oh, and The Yeah Yeah Yeahs' new album is fucking fantastic.
Download it NOW.
mkp.
Its seems ridiculous to me how friends seem to possess magical powers that enable them to mend the things that feel broken and incomplete in your life. Many things have in fact been mended, and I believe that things are finally falling into place.
To be perfectly honest, when Shell was nearing her ship date, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to hold on to a lot of the new friendships that were made in the time that existed between then and March 9th. But I guess the real friendships will be able to withstand her absence. I have come to a bittersweet realization and acceptance of that, and I am perfectly fine with it.Today after school, I spent a few hours with someone who really means a lot to me. Our friendship has been rekindled in a matter of a month and a couple weeks, but things feel new. We have become completely different people compared to who we were three years ago. I am truly grateful to have her as a friend.
I realized today that it is wrong to let bad things bottle up, and that it is okay to talk about whatever's been eating you up inside. I learned that part of me wishes I was older, but the greater part embraces my youth. I learned that all I really want is to inspire and be inspired.
Oh, and The Yeah Yeah Yeahs' new album is fucking fantastic.
Download it NOW.
mkp.
March 9, 2009
Willow Weeping.
I felt tired today.
Maybe its because I had an exhausting weekend. Maybe its cause I was up late last night on the phone. Maybe this is just my reaction to the departure of a good friend. I thought I had prepared myself for this: be unselfish, smile and wish her the best of luck, leave out all the crying. But apparently all those plans were ignored in the end.
To say the least, I'm left with a lot of unanswered questions, and I guess its up to me to go find those answers alone.
Maybe that's exactly what needs to happen, but I can't stop feeling scared. And I still can't help that I'm really going to miss you.
This is not a goodbye. I'll just see you later.
mkp.
Maybe its because I had an exhausting weekend. Maybe its cause I was up late last night on the phone. Maybe this is just my reaction to the departure of a good friend. I thought I had prepared myself for this: be unselfish, smile and wish her the best of luck, leave out all the crying. But apparently all those plans were ignored in the end.
To say the least, I'm left with a lot of unanswered questions, and I guess its up to me to go find those answers alone.
Maybe that's exactly what needs to happen, but I can't stop feeling scared. And I still can't help that I'm really going to miss you.
This is not a goodbye. I'll just see you later.
mkp.
March 2, 2009
Run Into Flowers.
I think the realization just hit me. The things I've been pushing away are approaching much more quickly than I've prepared myself for.
It is difficult to be supportive when you're selfish, and when you know that deep inside, you'd rather have things stay exactly the way they are now. Still, I'm going to smile and suck it up, because that's the correct and only thing left to do.
On an unrelated note, I don't recall a time when I was more busy than I am now. Aside from the interviews, school tours and scholarships, essays, projects, and art assignments, tests, failing, and homework, family reunions, arguments, and excessive daily chores, I am apparently the go-to-girl for customized tattoos and commissioned artwork. Get at me.
mkp.
It is difficult to be supportive when you're selfish, and when you know that deep inside, you'd rather have things stay exactly the way they are now. Still, I'm going to smile and suck it up, because that's the correct and only thing left to do.
On an unrelated note, I don't recall a time when I was more busy than I am now. Aside from the interviews, school tours and scholarships, essays, projects, and art assignments, tests, failing, and homework, family reunions, arguments, and excessive daily chores, I am apparently the go-to-girl for customized tattoos and commissioned artwork. Get at me.
mkp.
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