Today started out with a lot of uncertainty. Feelings of hesitation and, at times, even indecisiveness have practically plagued the entirety of my last night and morning/afternoon.
And then I get home.
I look through the pile of unopened envelopes, only to realize that I've finally received a letter from a dear friend, and I am so happy. I am excited to begin writing to her everyday.
And then I think this whole situation all over.
And then I realize that I am always one to overreact and to over analyze every single thing, like doubt has forever been etched into my brain and there's no possible way of ridding it. But I have come to terms with what this all is, and what is it is something that I would not trade for the world. We learn something new about ourselves everyday, and I learned how I really feel. What I feel is stronger than any temptation to destroy promises that can easily be broken during the spur of the moment. Truth is, no matter what, this is the happiest I have been in a long time.
And I miss you now, and I wish you could've just stayed with me a little bit longer. Time flies. I will eagerly wait for your call.
I hang on, don't want to miss my prime
'Cause time will fly, upon my baby's back.
mkp.
