December never felt so wrong
'Cause you're not where you belong inside my arms.
It doesn't feel like Christmas.
This year, the holiday season took me by surprise. My family and I decided to do something different, so we went to church on Christmas Eve instead of the actual day itself. I kept dozing off during the mass, thinking of the snow. It made me think of the white, snowy Nova Scotia winter, and I felt really sad. I wanted to leave for a few minutes to compose myself. Nova Scotia may be -40 degrees or less right now, but I still felt the wrathful cold of winter seeping through the layers of clothes on my back. I felt cold and empty. Jarrett is obviously not here with me for the holidays, and I think it finally hit me hard. I'm going to be honest and say that long distance relationships are really, really, really difficult, and its been rough lately. This winter has been the coldest winter for me yet. I'm tired of not being able to see or feel you. Especially on days like Christmas, when I want to greet you in person. I need your warmth. But since I can't have that right now, I need you to be happy.
I hope the rest of the day goes better. And to everyone reading this blog, I wish you a very Merry Christmas.
mkp.
