I got back from Kairos on Friday.
I was actually planning on updating this much sooner.
I had written pages about how great it all was, how it had truly changed me.
But it didn’t change me. I’m the same exact person I was before this trip. I just never was aware of who I really was. I was just really lost in this terrible mess of who I thought my friends or my family wanted me to be.
And so I deleted those pages of endless Kairos-raving—all of it, GONE.
That’s not what Kairos is about.
It isn’t meant to be shared and exposed that way. What I experienced, the awareness I felt, shouldn’t be proudly paraded around like a badge of honor for the world to see.
But I will say that I have never in my entire life felt so at peace with who I am.
All those things I used to really hate about myself is GONE, all that shit that happened before this trip is GONEEE.
And for the first time, I honestly feel that everything will be okay.
Live the fourth.
I was actually planning on updating this much sooner.
I had written pages about how great it all was, how it had truly changed me.
But it didn’t change me. I’m the same exact person I was before this trip. I just never was aware of who I really was. I was just really lost in this terrible mess of who I thought my friends or my family wanted me to be.
And so I deleted those pages of endless Kairos-raving—all of it, GONE.
That’s not what Kairos is about.
It isn’t meant to be shared and exposed that way. What I experienced, the awareness I felt, shouldn’t be proudly paraded around like a badge of honor for the world to see.
But I will say that I have never in my entire life felt so at peace with who I am.
All those things I used to really hate about myself is GONE, all that shit that happened before this trip is GONEEE.
And for the first time, I honestly feel that everything will be okay.
Live the fourth.
