Sometimes, I feel like I'm once again, grazing the edge. Sometimes, out of nowhere, it appears that we've become completely undone in the matter of minutes. Time is not my friend, right now. The meticulous and lengthy process takes to trust one, can still be unwound, in the shortest instance. The large amounts of days, weeks you spend with another, that can feel so substantial and steady, can be betrayed within the lack of communication that can take place within a single day. Time is moving so fast, but within the week, it moves at such a slow pace, that I find myself sometimes merely waiting. I keep myself busy. Within the past 24 hours, I'm feeling much more confident. Trust has replaced a large portion of the doubt. Still, there is a slight pang of sadness. And evidently, I am still very much afraid.
So please, walls stay down; head, find clarity; heart, remain open. Perseverance, determination, faith: be on my side, during these next few stages. I know I will need you more than ever.
mkp.
