I hate this feeling. This divided feeling to both surrender and keep fighting. To keep fighting for what I want, maybe for even what I need. Because I feel that maybe, somehow, it will all be worth it. Sure, there is a part of me that surely wants to call it off. But the greater half want to keep plunging through. This situation is far too complicated, that I can't even untangle what I feel from what matters most. I guess I just don't know what the right thing is to do.
But what I do know is that I'm not the only one going through this. That there is someone who I can directly relate to. And that our friendship has definitely been strengthened through our similar situations. And it's a relief to know that you've got my back and I've got yours.
mkp.
