its really incredible how i've been able to keep up with this.
i never would've thought it would be possible.
its still not getting any easier.
actually, as time goes by, its getting progressively harder and harder.
but i guess its because i keep neglecting the fact that i'm trying to rid myself of 5 years of work.
and now, instead of killing away my emtions, i have to learn to deal with them.
but how? i have to practically reteach myself to do everything.
and to be honest, i feel a tad bit insane.
however, three people have coincidentally made it all alot easier in the span of yesterday: someone i've met this year who has truly inspired me to keep holding on, a friend i've cherished for years now, and an asshole that i've happened to grown very fond of.
no school today = college applications, cleaning, and a visit to OTIS.
-mkp
